Lalalalalala

The thing i love about 60's rock n roll, especially the girl groups,
is that they always talked about love and made it seem sooo cute and sweet.
I like listening to it because they make crushing hard on a guy sound soo fun and
playful when in reality it can sometimes be complicated and frustrating.
So yea, im thankful for girl groups like The Exciters, The Ronettes, & The Chiffons.


I Love this song. Brenda Reid's voice is sooo ruff and tuff i love how it sounds.
There is something about the way they parade around in their white gloves and tutu's
that makes me want to do a choreography that consist of mostly hand gestures, smiles and winks. ;)


This song is the story of my life, right now.
This song/video makes me want to wear a wig and
wear my eyeliner looooong like Cleopatra..


and this one is for that fine boy over there....

EVERYday is Valentines... okaaaaaay!

yes we can talk all the shit we want about today because we are bitterly single or we can embrace our past/current relationships/love affairs in hopes of finding absolute joy mostly brought to us by our own selves. this is my suggestion and personal goal. im creating my own joy, in my own way via not depending on another person to fulfill me and my needs/desires - except those times when you need another person to carry out certain intimate tasks and ... ok lemme stop before i get too detailed..but you know what i mean...
Also, for now im single and pretty much ready to mingle, so if your interested you can call me at +39 327-84......... oh my bad... see, already im digressing....g'sus...

I just want to say this: If your in a relationship right now i hope your happy and giving and receiving all that you want and deserve and being true to yourself and whoever the lucky person is. If your single, i hope your using that status to its fullest and safest potential. If your ish is complicated i dont know, uuhhhh, what can i say, just follow your heart and hopefully you guys aren't fronting too hard on each other to make something work. I know deep down inside everyone just wants to be loved but too many people are scared and therefore vicious cycles like this are sometimes created.


Ok that will be $20 bucks for that real -better than Dr.Phil- advice. We can talk about payment options later. thanks.

So, there are about 4, more or less, possible emotional situations one may be in from being in/out of a relationship/love affair. Knowing how much music influences our thoughts, i went ahead and created small playlists to enhance your feelings. Each playlist consists of themed songs based on the possible emotional situations. Please download them, you might find something you like or that suites your current emotional state. Of course i didn't put ALL the songs i wanted to, i had to choose and decide and so these where the winners....

The first one is: 1. Love.

This is for the lovers out there who may be in love/lust, whatever, sprung/attached/ truly in LOVE, etc.from being in a strong, healthy and functioning relationship. So for the love birds we have the following songs:
1. Kiss -Dj Smash Remix (Prince Cover)
2. Rock With You -Eric Robinson
3. The One For Me -Rahsaan Patterson
4. Sexual Healing (Nick James Remix) - Marvin Gaye
5. The Make Up -Cody Chesnutt
6. Inside My Love - Minnie Riperton
7. Cocoon -Björk
8. Love Song #1 -Me'shell Ndegéocello
9. Dont Look Back -Télépopmusik
10. Sabor A Mi -Lila Downs
11. Rosebuds - Sa-Ra
12. Little Bit -Lykke Li
13. No Greater Love -Blu & Exile
14. Girlfriend -Jay Electronica
15. Aint Nothing Like You -Blakroc (ft. Jim Jones & Mosdef)

Ok this mix is GUARANTEED to get you lovers quickly loving or your money back!!! Very sexy tunes with a positive message. Click on list above to download!!!!


The second one is the: 2. ERASE you mix

This mix is the - after the relationship mix - (especially if it was a bad breakup) the songs you need to have so you can get over your ex. I mean, just for the time right after the breakup then maybe after time you can "be friends".

1. I Like It (But I Don't Need It) -Vivian Green
2. Mr. Messed Up -Floetry
3. Why You Bullshittin'
4. Erase You -ESG
5. My Love For You -ESG
6. Deceptacon -Le Tigre

These songs will get you to realize that its ok and that it might be better to breakup anyway.

The third one, i call the: 3.Baggage Claim Mix

These songs are for the lovers out there who just cant let go and end up caring bags... ugh, the worst choice to make, really it doesn't work for anyone... its even worst when the emotional bags are carried into the next relationship...Its for those that know its all bad but dont know how to let it go and move on and may even become self destructive. Ok just to be safe, dont download this one unless your REALLY over it because it may enhance your feelings that may lead to depression. If thats the case you should defiantly get the last #4 playlist. Just sayin'.

1. Remember Me -Sweet Soul Sisters Vol.1
2. Runabout -Little Dragon
3. Maps -Yeah Yeah Yeahs
4. Breaking It Up -Lykke Li
5. Dirty Peaches (ft. J'Davey) -88-Keys


The last one is called the: 4. im Over it mix

This mix is for those who dropped there emotional bags off at baggage claim and moved on via realizing that it is unhealthy to loathe in past relationships that did not work. This is for those who were in a really bad situation and were unable to clearly see its impediment and settled for less but have now gained the ability to really push forward.

1. I Gotta Get It -Sweet Soul Sister Vol.1
2. Get Out of my Way -Ayo
3. Ever Fallen In Love -Nouvelle Vague
4. Outta My Head -Teedra Moses
5. Butterfly Girl (ft Eric Robinson) -Dj Spinna
6. Que Sera -Wax Tailor

So yea, this is my playlists for Valentines Day and for these possible situations. hahaha. Please Download!!!
This post started of as a joke but reading it over it sounds really serious. LOL. maybe its a little bit of both...well nonetheless I really do hope this can benefit at least one of you. Music is inspirational, empowering and healing. enjoy.

editors note. on playlist #4, the 3rd song should have been in the #3 playlist maybe. Also, i tried to make the songs relevant for both men and woman, i mean i tried to make it from both perspectives because both genders can act the same, both good and bad, but it was a bit hard via that fact that more women write love songs....

Thank You Love Note

I just want to really really thank all
my friends... the one's who've stuck around
this whole time
the one's who support me, my ideas
and my lifestyle
the ones that still love me even after
a mood swing,
after finding out i dont really
sugar coat shit
after seeing me evolve and undeniably change
after seeing me fuck up
and maybe even cry

thank you for sticking to me in
my lows and in my highs

fuck this conditional love noise

its not easy loving someone unconditional
but its possible

im so happy to know that i do have a great group of individuals in my life who no matter what i do
still love me...

not a lot of people can do that
i guess
but for those that are ready
to give and receive unconditional love
I thank you

Ashe!

Yo Momma Records Presents:

Ok ladies and gentlemen, this is a very serious post here. Ha!
Me, I listen to many genres of music. That’s just how my life is. I’ve lived in different communities throughout my life where I’ve been exposed to many types music and lifestyles. I remember at the beginning, aka when I was younger I used to be biased. If I only liked one type of music I didn’t like the rest, like I had this idea in my head that said that was impossible.I feel lucky to be up on all types of music though. Makes me uhhhh…,what is it?… “well-rounded” as they say….Anyhow… I like making playlist that have a theme. For example I have a RAIN MIX, which is a playlist of songs that have the word RAIN in them. I play this when its… yes you guessed it… raining!I pretend im a dj or producer and make myself mix tapes sometimes I make copies and give them away…

So now with great things such as the internet, I can continue to make mixes (there not actually mixed though there really just a playlist but ill call them mixes for short) and share them with you!

Also, FYI, like I mentioned before, most likely (but not always) the songs wont all be the same genre because im basing the mixes on what the songs are about/how they make me feel… and uh yea, I could do that because its my freaking blog! Ha!

Ok, the first mix I will share is one that ive been listening to lately. I call it the
I Really Wanna Fly Mix. This mix was inspired by this energetic feeling I get every once in a while when im just out and about & I want to just fly- no, I want to soar! Its weird, I don’t know, I hope I make sense. For example, I’ll start thinking about my goals and dreams and how much power I have to make them real. And how I’ve made past dreams come true already. It’s a feeling of faith/security/trust. It’s a feeling that makes me feel like im flying, like im in a movie and there is a bunch of struggle yet it has a happy ending. haha, I crack myself up with this shit, but im dead serious.
The following songs are like my theme music to this. Because of either the lyrics or the beat.

Yo Momma Records Presents: I Really Wanna Fly Mix

1. Humble Mumble – Outkast

2. Are You Ready? – Aloe Blacc

3. Complex Simplicity – Teedra Moses

4. Happening – Quantic

5. Departure – Quantic

6. Good Morning (nick james remix) – Talib Kweli

7. Black Maybe – Common (ft Bilal)

8. Culture Instrumental – (2006 Nick James Remix)

Ok, real quick...
The Outkast song and the Teedra Moses totally remind me of driving in my car in the summer feelin' fly and high on life. The Aloe Blacc song has a dope beat, it pumps me up and makes me feel like im about to meet a fly guy who is gonna sweep me off my feet (lol). The song Happening by Quantic makes me feel like im running down the shore of a beach in the hot summer heat with my loved ones. Departure makes me feel like im catching a flight about to depart to the beach i just mentioned. Good Morning is a dope song but this remix by Nick James makes it much more sweet. I was listening to this one time when i was boarding a plane. It really had me thinking. Thinking about my life and all the things i want, how much i already have and being thankful. Black Maybe, has a dope beat but also spits about the obstacles and oppositions we face from our own people or our own minds yet we over come it. Culture Instrumental is a nice jazzy beat that gave me this feeling i cant even describe when I first heard it. My favorite is how the keys sound, something about it really inspires me.

I hope u enjoy it.
Thanks.

The following message is for anyone who's song may be on this list (because yea, common and talib kweli and andre 3000 read my blog!) hehehe:
please let me know if you dont want it to be downloaded i can remove it. I apologize in advance. If not, thanks for sharing.
peace.

Dj Cndo- Hey You

This african lady dj named: DJ CNDO has this track called "Hey You" on her album Finest Lady Of House Vol. 1 and this is one of my favorite songs right now...listening to it makes me feel like im flying over the ocean or something like that. I think its a love song but i dont really know the words because there in another language...
hope u like it as much as i do.
click here to download it

La Mission

I remember about a year ago hanging out on 22nd and Bryant street over in the San Francisco Mission district and seeing all these super sweet low rider cars and a bunch of lights and cameras down the street. Obviously a movie production was taking place. Then Mayra Ramirez walked in the house and confirmed it when she told us about her 2 minutes of fame. She had herself a mini role in the film as a fly homegirl who cusses some dirty guys out as they try to hit on her.

The film im talking about is: La Mission.... check the video interview for an inside scoop.

I like how the director and writer, Peter Bratt talks about "LOve" and how we always sound apologetic when we talk about love and even call it corny. I was like, "damn thats true, i do that too" (actually i even say it on my little blog bio) =/
hhmmmm....

That made me feel like damn why do we always need peer aproval to be ok with how we feel. Why cant i just feel the way I feel and not be apologetic. As if being hard and tuff makes you cooler. As if, not expressing your true feelings makes you safer. Maybe it does? I mean it probably does protect us from getting hurt. I've been there done that though, i've kept my true feeling inside instead of expressing myself and lost more than i gained.

Well i'll see how this will help me transform the way i communicate when it comes to love. And i dont mean that love between a boy and girl love (only) but the love to just love. The love for passion, family, community, music, etc.
sorry if i keep sounding made corny with this lovey dove talk (SEE!! apologizing!) haha, no but i dont always talk like this so its a big deal for me to be on this tip.
until next time...

Lets Play "Catch Up"

Soooo, I did the same thing I did 6 years ago when I finally turned 18 and left LosAngeles and went north to San Francisco.....
I packed my bags and left not only to a new city but to a whole new continent where i didn't know ANYONE!!! This time though, it wasn't a 1 hour flight away. Now i live in Milan Italy which is 9 hours ahead the place a call home (time zone not distance). So when its 9am here, its midnight in California.

How? & why? you may be wondering... well Im doing an exchange program with my SFSU (my university in Cali). But honestly, i dont even know why. I guess i have A.D.D. but its for living in a place too long. No, i needed a change of scenery (but the bay IS still one of the most beautiful places) or most of all a new way to approach and study fashion design. I am at an art academy taking fashion courses in Italian which is also challenging but fascinating all at the same time.

Im here for one year with one of best friends Joicy Serrano who is studying graphic design and she is the best person to be here with because she is mad strong, determined and we understand each other. We are both Los Angeles natives with roots in El Salvador who are going for the gusto.


So yea, it wasn't easy, we had to take 2 years of Italian Language and we had the meanest lil Italian man teacher who i think didnt like us because well, i dont really know he was just uufff (its a long story). So whatever, we still did what we had to do: jumped into a green tube to end up in a whole 'nother world, spit flames at anything holding us back, ate mushrooms to stay alive, collected feathers to fly and got mad points from it! There was nothing stopping us from saving the princess!!! oh wait, that's another story!.... but u get my drift....

Anyhow... we didnt even tell anyone becasue we didnt want to jinx it or what if we didnt end up going!? We would of just been a buncha talk and nah, we weren't going out like that... But when the reality of us really going got closer and closer, it was like fire. Nothing could get in the way... even when it hurt sooo much to leave my loved ones...
We even had a going away party/fundraiser at my house before we left. It was a great success with the help of my friends volunteering as bartenders, DJs, door ladys, etc. A lot of people came and i got to say good bye at the same time while making $$$ for my trip. It was also a collaboration with Wonway for his 30th bday....fun fun fun


Even though it sucks to leave my friends and fam for a year i feel good because i got so many people back home sending me much love and support and i know when i go back they will mostly all still be there and if not, when you really want someone in your life, you TRY! But yea, its a sacrifice that im willing to make. I left a piece of my heart back there too which made it soo fucking hard to be out here the first 3 months. But the universe does the things it does and i accept and instead of getting jaded or getting mad for not being ready to be in a serious relationship at this point in my life, i just send this person my unconditional amore in hopes of someday getting that in return. Unconditional Love.
Thats another story.


Moving on... it was hard when we first got here to find a place to live. We finally got a cute lil apartment 15 min walk from school just for me and Joicy. It has two balconies and i get my own room!!! If your wondering why im so excited about having my own room, its because almost everyone shares a room. Its not even about money, that's just how people do. I want to do a photoshoot in the apt so when i do i will post them for you to see.

And now here I am, 2 1/2 months after arriving, adapting to a new culture and most of all, lifestyle. Its been quite the experience and i appreciate it all, even the rough parts. I can be here complaining about a bunch of things (because naturally, we resist to change sometimes), which happens most likely because we are scared. But i rather be here complaining than in the states complaining. There im less likely to encounter an opportunity so intense like this one, that forces me to look and listen to myself before and during my actions and reactions. And as open minded as i may be, there is still those little piece that needs work to be completely free. But self reflection is inevitable these days in my life.


And everyday gets a little better and better. Everyday I learn something new about the language, my studies, myself and the world. So, honestly, i love this!!! Sometimes I wonder must i really go back?


lol.